Habitual Inhibition

Has anyone ever told you to let go of your inhibitions?  When are you actually able to do this?  Or are you?  It’s a nice thing to say or think about doing – but can we every fully let go?

These are the thoughts running through my mind after my co-write this weekend with my friend Robert LaSalle.  We finished a song about a wealthy man whose spirit is getting crushed by his lifestyle.  He drives a long distance to the ocean and leaves everything behind as he transforms into a Beach Bum (ever wonder where beach bums come from? well, now you know.)

Admittedly, it’s an extreme example of letting go of inhibition, so much so that this character gives up possessions, social norms and loved ones.  But I think the idea is something we can all relate to.

“Beach Bum”

Chorus:
Falling from grace
Falling out from the Great Unknown
(The Great Unknown is calling me.)

After writing this song, the presence of my own inhibition is clearer than ever.  I feel it in my own songwriting.  You see, I love collaborating, but it’s as if I mentally block myself from the flow of inspiration when I’m sitting next to a co-writer.  I feel the most comfortable coming up with lyrics curled up by my lonesome where I can crawl into the caverns of my mind.  

But I long to be open with others with my thoughts and creativity – I just don’t know how to get there yet.  How do we work ourselves out of these unconscious patterns?  Robert says drink more alcohol – ha, I’m not buying into that solution yet.  For now, my uninhibitor is a strong cocktail of therapy and acupuncture with one of those umbrella thingys for good measure.

I’ll be posting the finished song soon!

 

Navigator/Aviator – I Finished the Song!

 

A couple of months ago I posted a song in progress and now I’d like to share the finished piece!  One of my most favorite feelings in the whole wide world is to call a song done, and “Navigator/Aviator” has been an idea laying dormant in my head for 8 years now – so the “done” feeling is REALLY a great one in this case!

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Idle Minds and Window Shrines – Preludes to the Creative Space

My music room

My sunny music room

In the moments before creation, there is stillness.  I’m standing in front of my keyboard, but I don’t play.  Instead, I find that I’m staring out the window again.  Not wasting time, no, no no.  I’m…resetting the brain.

a_girl_hanging_upside_down_from_the_couch_1883099I remember summers as a kid – I would hang upside down off our sticky leather couch and stare up at the ceiling.  In this seemingly awkward position, I would imagine how wonderful it would be if the ceiling was the floor.  How clean and tidy it would be!  Nothing to pick up or trip over – expect for those twirling fans.  I’d stay upside down until the rush of blood to my head would make me woozy or until my mom would find me.

Looking back at this memory, I realize I was probably just giving my mind some transition time.

The window in my music room provides that much needed transition time in my writing process.  Here, I enter the slippery space between feeling the tinge of inspiration and actually opening its creative coffer.  I give myself time to zone out (which is, as I’ve recently learned, an essential part of the creative process) and forget about the menial tasks of the day and enjoy the view:

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Behind the Song: Wordless Words (a Special Valentine’s Video)

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The Creative Community Movement

I’ve been talking with my fiancé, Jonathan, a lot lately about what a creative community is and how to strengthen those communities around us.  We all have a lot to offer each other, no matter what we love to do: paint, dance, sing, write, play, speak, draw, levitate…

Through blogging this past year, I’ve been making wonderful creative connections with other bloggers, one of whom is Rida of Work In Progress.  She was inspired after watching a video I posted of my song “Navigator/Aviator” and wrote her original lyrics to my tune.  How cool is that??

Here’s my song “Navigator/Aviator:”

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Behind the Song: Navigator, Aviator – SNEAK PEAK

I’ve been having a great time working on a new song called “Navigator, Aviator.”  Here’s what it sounds like so far:

I’ve had a hankering to write a song about asking someone to be “my Navigator” for probably eight years now.  It’s been one of those ideas that hangs around, floats in and out of my thoughts…I never could fully flesh out till now.

As a musician trying to navigate herself through this tangled music industry, it’s easy to see where the desire for some navigation comes from.  In times past, I’ve certainly wished for someone to just DISCOVER ME, to go “POOF you’re famous!”  But I’ve realized (through these eight years) that I need direction, not someone to do it for me.

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New Record “The Shy Gemini Sessions” Coming Soon!

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Here's me playing the Wurlitzer with my co-producer/engineer/friend Bobby Holland.

Playing the Wurlitzer with my co-producer/engineer/friend Bobby Holland at South Street Studios on Music Row.

I think it’s about time (actually past time) to tell you all about my upcoming record, “The Shy Gemini Sessions” (name sound familiar to anyone?).  Regrettably I’ve been neglecting my blogging lately because I’ve been so busy recording this project.  What I should have been doing is blogging about the project all along – but what’s done is done, and I’m here now to tell you all about it!

“The Shy Gemini Sessions” consists of seven songs recorded in two ways (what else would you expect from a Gemini?)  Side A features a full production approach; fleshed out with strings, Wurlitzer and accordion to name a few, it soars with all the pump of a full band.  Side B showcases the same songs in their stripped-down essential form, highlighting the space where voice and instrument are simply together as one entity.

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